Încep să prind gustul

Începutul de toamnă s-a adunat de mult în ramuri. Pe unde trec - încă străine locuri - recunosc ca dintr-o vedenie chipuri de frunze şi lumini de apus, imagini ce mi-au fost de dragi încă de atunci...
Îmi cârpesc zilele de septembire cu câte un curs răzleţ, cu câte o temă. Asta în variantă 'demo'. Full version-ul nu e la fel de user-friendly cum s-ar părea. După prima săptămână de studenţie (mie încă nu-mi vine să cred ; ca să mă conving că sunt studentă, îmi imaginez discuţii între bunici şi vecini pe tema "unde-i nepoata matale?"), îmi iau în serios toate responsabilităţile!
Mă mir că nu am făcut mari eforturi să intru în ritm. Ceasul meu biologic devine brusc responsabil de dimineţile începute cu entuziasm, chiar cu câte o tură de campus cu joc de glezne. Micul dejun consolează noaptea precedentă înecată în teme şi ştiu că fiecare ceaşcă de ceai va purta aroma zilei abia începute. La masă mă întâlnesc întotdeauna cu colegul de vis-a-vis la fel de matinal ca şi mine. Nu prea vorbesc cu restul lumii din servery, prea puţină, de altfel, şi mă nu mă concentrez deloc asupra gesturilor de 'grab and drop food'.
După o ceaşcă de ceai negru, parcă şi lumea prinde contur mai clar. Încep să realizez că trebuie într-adevăr să ajung într-un sfert de oră la cursuri. După două săptămâni petrecute aici, nu mai port harta campusului cu mine. Dar orarul trebuie citit cu mintea limpede dimineaţa...
În drum spre lecture hall (nu-mi ia mai mult de 5 minute), un domn respectabil trece cu bicicleta pe lângă mine şi ne salutăm aproape simultan.
Major:Integrated Social Sciences. Studenţi: mai multe fete, majoritatea blonde capabile şi cochete, băieţi cu aspiraţii filosofice sau politice, indivizi din anii superiori care reiau cursul. Lecture Hall: dotat, cu prea puţină lumină, un loc plăcut pentru somnul de după-amiază. Perdele roşii sau jaluzele prea mate. Prea multe proiectoare şi ecrane.
Intră profesorul. Stupoare: e chiar domnul cu bicicleta.
Course outline, lumea devine interesată..(sau nu, depinde de oră). Intervenţii în discuţie: conflictul din Georgia, cercetarea empirică, wikipedia contestată, 'puteţi să repetaţi?'. Doar reacţii pozitive de la catedră, răspunsuri date fără stridenţă, în limbaj profesional, cu intruziuni argotice, pentru entertainment. Medierea tuturor discuţiilor de fond făcută cu foarte mult calm. Punctualitate? Cred că e un feeling natural pentru orice neamţ, şi implicit pentru restul molipsiţilor de cultura tic-tac-ului. Ora se termină la timp, lumea îşi exprimă entuziasmul printr-o modalitate mai mult sau mai puţin inedită de a aplauda - bătut uşor cu pumnul în masă preţ de câteva secunde.
Drumul spre cămeruţă mai aduce un schimb de impresii. Nu bârfă! Nu se comentează de cum a venit cutare îmbrăcat, ce 'figuri' face proful, cât de grasă e aia din prima bancă. Nu! În schimb, sigur găsim o modalitate şucară de a irosi seara şi de a lăsa temele pentru 'midnight oil'
Ajung în cameră, fie că mai am cursuri, fie că am terminat, sigur îmi mai verific o dată mailbox-ul. Spamurile intra-campus-ice au tot felul de subiecte ciudate. De la "does anyone have a screwdriver?' la informări privind parlamentul studenţilor. E de la sine înţeles că mi-a lipsit mult downloadul, atât timp cât aici nu e permis niciun fel de torrent. Ca un fel de terapie pentru a mă deyobişnui au acţionat spamurile, dar şi laptopul meu care până ieri a fost în comă...Priviţi aici:

Asta a fost ca să îl fac de ruşine!
Dar, tot păţitu-i priceput!M-am descurcat, successfully, să-l doctoresc şi nu sunt nevoită să rescriu post-ul de pe blog din cauza unui astfel de flashback albastru.
Am început săptămâna a doua de şcoală, şi deja îmi fac rezervare pentru avionaş, ca să ştiu că ajung şi eu la timp ca să frământ conzonacii. Deocamdată ideea mi se pare foarte îndepărtată, dar totuşi nu mă bântuie doruri deprimante. Poate şi fiindcă am destul de lucru de pe o zi pe alta, iar timpul se umple ca un cozonac dospit.
Mi-e dor, în schimb, de măruntele tabieturi de acasă. O durere de spate, o migrenă, un acces de violenţă puteau fi calmate de Home Package- o alintare, un masaj, ceva sugestii binevoitoare. Acum găsesc soluţii surogat în atmosfera din cameră. Fac tot posibilul să fie relaxantă şi primitoare.
Scenariul de până acum are şi intruziuni de rutină, dar care sunt total inaplicabile în weekend. Aici, petreceri cu duiumul, karaoke după 'Lady Marmelade' la ora 2 noaptea pe la geamuri, Vecini de palier dezorientaţi care...reciclează sticle de Beck's, alţii, nostalgici, cântă la chitară. Restul sunt sus la Pajama Party, la un biliard sau la filmuleţ. Extra-campusing - în Irish Pub, Chocolate Store şamd.
Deja mă leagă ceva de locurile astea...

Annual Opening

Green mood, fresh morning dreams drown in the morning coffee...1st of September. Office clothes prepared, discreet make-up, shy smile hiding inner tension.
Ceremony begins. President, professors, organizers delivering speeches, students and faculty cheering up. I pinch myself to believe it is true.

I am officially student.(first from my ex-high school class)

Signing the code of integrity and the official book of students was a part of the ritual, and so did the loyalty oath. The few words we all repeated loudly just made me tremble. I remembered again the previous comparison between university and army.
Well, I still don't feel responsibility running through my veins, but it is quite big step towards maturity.

I even took my first courses today - Academic and Professional Skills and French- and even change some courses in my schedule for this week. I consider myself to be very committed to what means academic mission, but I won't make a supreme ideal from high school achievement. I'm really sick of that!
I need a refreshing goal, one to turn on the mechanisms of affection and sensibility. I'm starting to want being myself.

STATUS QUO - YOU'RE IN THE ARMY NOW

Summarizing

The last week of the "politically correct" summer was a great demonstration of what teenage should really mean. I previously spoke about my first day at Jacobs, the people I met, my mood. Now I feel that I've already spent at least two months here, that's because the atmosphere seems to suit me. Diversity, energy, fun, ambition, curiosity, youth are just some of the key-words that come into my mind right now. I try being unbiased when describing Jacobs, but this can't really occur, because I've already started calling it "home". This transition is quite strange, as long as I don't find anyone in my Mercator room to wait me with lunch. Fortunately, the Aramark food is fine (yet)and I don't need more than a minute to get into the servery. Daily scenario is not very typical yet, so I managed to avoid routine, grace to the unpredictable schedule for the Orientation Week. Monday was designed for gates & eyes-opening, as I said. Tuesday, the so-called "Official Welcome Day", began with early sports in the morning. According to the German deadline, I missed the start, because I arrive one minute later where the group should have met. I did my morning sport by myself, so that I didn't have to run countinously for 40 minutes. Instead of this, I enjoy the Green 'Campus Green' at dawn.....breathing in, breathing out.... So fresh and touchable, yet so unreal. After breakfast, we took the official group photo of the entire class. Here is it!


Pretty cool! I'm not that cheerful every day, so you may gonna miss my smile....although this one was a bit exaggerate. (instead of "cheese" the photographer told us to say "whiskey", because it works muck better)
Besides signing papers and getting everything settled I started thing about a way to decorate my room. It seems that I picked the right colors for the beddings as they suit the orange atmosphere instilled by the floor.
The "Big Goodbye" scene took place at lunch and I did my best not to make it look pathetic and overemotionally. I was the one who left home, but not the one leaving. With the illusion of my parents' car going out of campus I didn't feel like leaving them alone.
Wednesday we listened the safety instructions that were very seriously explained and we all have to test our ability to use fire estinguisher on a fake fire. It was quite fun, as I thing nobody had done that before, so that we looked pretty clumsy.
My first academic success came Mittwoch, as I took my language placement test for German and French. The adoptive language proved to be very kind to me, as the quiz wasn't as hard as I had expected. Most of those who came to take the test were absolute beginners, so that only a quarter of us remained in the lecture hall. The general atmosphere of the test time was definitely induced by Romanians who thought that cheating would bring them to a higher level. I can only remember the professors voice warning them not to talk to each other : a neutral tone, yet superior and detached that would have made me blush if I had been warned myself. German dignity contaminated me;)
As for the French test, I was surprised to find in the main question of the test my high school teacher's style. I did I well, I had a nice conversation with the professor, who convinced me that my 7th course for this semester(besides the 5 mandatories and German) would definitely be French. Let me skip the waiting part and tell you that I'm B 2.1 German and C 1.1 French, that means intermediary for the 1st one and advanced for the 2nd.
Somehow I'm not sorry for missing the Social Nights in the ChillOut Zone, because I (we)found many interesting things to do as an independent group.
Maybe the most intensive Jacobian part was the "IUB Rocks Event"...let me quote an official source... " an important tradition for all new students". It doesn't seem very appealing, does it?
Lucky me, I woke up in time, and my dreams weren't spoiled by the alarm call - used by the organizers and student advisers to wake us up (besides aggressive knocking on doors and yelling). We started with some warming up exercise, that made us all feel stupid. Look at this:




Hands-free eating ...






The great rush...


Two by Two jumping ...

Skipping the hands-free cake-eating, let's focus on the most deep part of the initiating ceremony. We joined all in three circles, grouping by the college where we live in: Krupp, Mercator,(mine) College 3 and Blue House.
Than we all joined together in a bigger circle and started squeezing, so that the circle had no more than 15 meters diameter. I couldn't take any photo, as the exercise was a really tough one. Not only had we squeezed, but also we had to sit each on other's loop.
The climax of the scenario, kissing the little Trivia Ducks on the pond, was a unique moment for each of us. We had already surpassed the frustration episode and got into confusion and stupid acceptance. The rubber mascots have a great symbolic meaning, as they are metaphor for intercultural competence.My own and personal duck is a great friend of Pudding...

Let's go on with the IUB Rocks story... So, we kissed the ducks, it was a bit embarrassing, but I'd have regretted not to take part in such an event.




We promised a revenge on the next generation, but unfortunately we'll pay back to some innocent freshies. In fact, this is exactly what they did to us.
In the next afternoon we took or time, having a pleasant walk to the mall. Stuff that I bought really improved my room's aspect. Now it looks very bright; I picked soft orange because of its therapeutic effect and I hope it will work even during the depressing exams time.

Saturday was maybe the most active day of the week, as we "dived into Jacobs". The purpose of our CSI game was getting to know the surroundings of the campus, and find a hypothetic killer. We were grouped in five teams, named with Greek letters. I was in Delta (force), but my team didn't win, as we wasted more than an hour in a wrong location. After 4 hours of walking and changing buses, we missed our lunch and got angry. I was pleased with some juice, but my nap was really affected by hunger. I started dreaming of Jacobs, of people around here, and it seemed like I was falling in my friends' disgrace. Well, the episode I dreamed to came true after only 24 hours. Unfortunately...
Sunday brunch made me more dizzy than I previously was. Well, it might have been because of the early jogging and the after party landscape that replaced the real campus. Here is a suggestive photo...


Don't you imagine that it stayed the same for the next twenty minutes. The pure green atmosphere was settled back soon after.

Die Bremer Altstadt refreshed my mood and so did my first travel with a German train - as punctual as possible.
Here I am in my softly lit room, living my first episode of serious depression. 10 napkins gone, some more to go. Long live messenger....and my real friends!

1st Jacobs-inspired post

The traveling episode may be skipped, as the main point of all these days was my REAL coming to Jacobs University. A fresh Monday, a perfect weather for ducks, smiling faces at the ' Welcome desk'... Well, I was my very first visit to Campus, as the day before I got in just to take a glance( yes, I stepped in with my right foot!). However, today was the official welcome...
On my way from the hotel to the campus I was getting more and more nervous, in tandem with the speed indicator of the car ( grace to German Highways that, by the way, offer direction for Jacobs Campus). My arrival was very natural , very real; everything got set in a half an hour, I got my keys for my very cute room, filled the check-in forms, unpacked...well, I'm going to do this for the rest of the week.
This part looked quite familiar to every freshman, but for me was people's attitude that set the atmosphere and also my mood. I felt very comfortable being myself in this island of diversity. As my li'l duck on the desk says, I have to "dive into diversity". 95 nationalities joined together is an unique opportunity to explore and also an exercise for life. English is working perfectly right here, dissolving boundaries and constraints.
My new friends are as freshmen as I am. Besides my assigned advisers, I met my roommate (in fact, apartment-mate), Wiebke and some Romanian fellows. Well, that's because I forgot some of the others' names, but since I have my Jacobs Notebook ready, I'll start using it for names and "addresses" (btw, mine is MC 129, and I'm happy to have my room on the ground floor).
After at about six campus tours, we (my 5 already friends and I) had an off-campus tour. Luckily, we didn't get lost and arrive in time for the night party. However, we just took a glance inside the dance room and the bar, because we want to be ready for early morning sport activities. These will be begin at 7 o'clock....and I don't have an alarm clock. there's a nice online application to replace this item, but my blue IT friend is tired too, so I'm not sure if to keep it alive till morning.
This was a enthusiastically brief presentation of my first day at Jacobs, I hope to have time to come back more lucidly to this episode.

De acasă...

Valizele , rucsacul şi toate cele....multe gentuţe ocupă încăperea ce încă e 'camera mea'. De aici se simte cel mai frumos apusul, lumina aceea răsfrântă peste cotorul cărţilor din bibliotecă şi peste icoane. De aici am privit tavanul nopţi de-a rândul, aşteptând să aud acele vorbe ale izbăvirii. Nu ştiu dacă le-am trăit până în final, dar le simt purtându-mă acum către ferestre mai limpezi şi ochi mai deschişi, dar mai aprigi.
De la terminarea şcolii am început să risipesc istoria ultimilor patru ani, împrăştiind pe ici, pe colo, caiete şi ciorne. Acum biroul şi dulapul sunt aproape goale, umplute de jurnale vechi, mape şi ecusoane ferfeniţite.
Plecarea aceasta ar echivala, prin timp şi prin dimensiune, cu o plecare în armată. Spun asta şi fiindcă s-au găsit destui care să facă o astfel de analogie. Nu-mi voi lua cu mine un cufăr de lemn în care să am ascunse poza cu casa, însă conţinutul emoţional al valizelor mele e la fel cu cel al unui viitor ostaş. Oricum, nici un flăcău vrednic nu şi-ar lua cu sine o jucărie de pluş. Pudding al meu (n.r. ursuleţul meu classically designed , care imi asculta of-urile de cinci ani încoace) e mai curajos decât mine şi şi-a făcut loc printre hainele de toamnă din valiză, doar ca să mă însoţească. Multă vreme el a fost mascota unei vârste, a unei idile, acum e doar un memento pentru Acasă.
Alte mărunţişuri dragi sunt biletele de tren colecţionate pe parcursul drumurilor spre sud, de mine şi de alţii. Mă bucur că am şi un exemplar recent, pe care o să-l pun în panoplia onorifică de la Bremen.
Lumea în jurul meu adună gps-uri, hărţi, reviste de citit pe drum, încarcă baterii şi pregăteşte sandwich-uri. Eu m-am mulţumit, până acum, să îmi iau rămas bun de la cei dragi, să termin seria 3 de la 'Lost' şi să mă apuc de 4. Ca să vezi corespondenţă : fiecare sfârşit îşi cere un nou început, cu un box office cât mai consistent.
Se îngrămădesc peste mine toate amintirile cu oameni, cu suflete tari, cu glezne fragile. Lacrimi neplânse, sărutări reţinute şi priviri înapoi îmi încarcă umerii de povara unor greşeli mult prea omeneşti. Le păstrez pe toate ca semne ale unor răni nevindecate, pe trupul apăsat de neuitare. Aş putea să uit doar în zborul de pe urmă plimbarea pe sub stele, cei patru ochi aţintiţi spre cer, visul cu cetatea şi mângâierile pe creştet. Pentru acestea nu îmi trebuie desăgi, nici toiag. Cât încă trupul rabdă să mai respire, ele sunt sădite în poveste. Şi povestea merge mai departe.

Enjoy The Ride - Morcheeba feat Judy Tzuke

Best Advice

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience…I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before
you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you imagine.

Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm
on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you

Sing

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss

Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.

Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch

Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.

Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own..

Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for
good.

Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you
should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.[...]

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.

Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen…

To the Moon and Back

..and they bite it, they scratch the midnight air with their breathing. Shadows cover the halo and the silence becomes bitter and bitter.